God's Soft Spot

Jeremiah 18:7-8 "If at any time I declare concerning a nation or a kingdom, that I will pluck up and break down and destroy it, and if that nation, concerning which I have spoken, turns from its evil, I will relent of the disaster that I intended to do to it."

These verses really hit my heart today. I've been reading straight through the Old Testament for awhile now, and am in Jeremiah. Let me tell you... not for the faint of heart. The word "whore" is used often in the first several chapters, and when my buddy at work would use that word I would cringe, physically, because I was thinking about the beat down the Israelites were getting from the Big Guy. But more importantly it kept causing me to revisit the things in my life that I am whoring out to other gods... and let me tell you, there are lots!

Then there's God, as usual... letting a little light shine in. :) "...if that nation, turns from its evil, I will relent of the disaster that I intended to do to it." God's soft spot - a repentant heart. Nothing new, nothing profound... the same message. In the same way that he has to repeat it over and over and over and over and over and over to the Israelites, he repeats it to my wondering heart. Again, the grace and mercy of God never ceasing to amaze me. No matter what we've done, or how far away we feel we have fallen, God will relent of the disaster that we deserve to have fall upon us, and lavish us with his love, grace, and blessings.

"That's What I Love About Sunday's"

I stole that title from a country song, hence the quotation marks.

For the last 2-3 months Bo & I have been on a church rotation basis. I wouldn't recommend this for just anyone, but for this season of life for us it is working really well. Will's morning nap is right during church, and this was not a problem for awhile because he would fall asleep during the service with a bottle or rocking, and that was that. However, since the little guy's become mobile there was no more falling asleep during the service... This just made church miserable for Bo & I, probably moreso me than Bo, because with me being pregnant & him on slides or lights chasing the little booger around because he was too cranky to go to the nursery did not bode well - then making Bo miserable (or at least me trying and I'm pretty sure succeeding to make him miserable as well). :)

So... all of that to say, this morning was my morning on duty. I wanted to share some of what I journaled this morning as it describes what my on-duty "routine" has been looking like, and I'm loving it.

.... "I've just been spending some quiet & peaceful time on the porch while Will is sleeping. It's a beautiful fall day, I have my yummy new candle lit - Yankee's "Nature's Paintbrush," - sipping some coffee, cuddled up under a blanket, with the fuzz of the baby monitor in the background. Although my thoughts & the Holy Spirit are inaudible they are as full in the air as the aroma of my candle."

This morning I was praising God & getting excited about the arrival of our baby girl Sarah (honey, if you turn out to be a boy... sorry buddy! we're still excited for you!) However, I also feel bad for Will, because we can't help him prepare for her arrival. We can't sit him down and explain what's going on, but he can say "Baby Sarah" so maybe that will help? So this was my prayer for him this morning:

"God, please prepare his little heart. I don't want him to feel left out, abandoned, or less loved. I pray for energy to give time & attention to him even though there are sleepless nights ahead. God be sweet & tender with him in this time and give him wisdom & understanding of the situation. Fill his heart with great love & care for his baby sister. May Bo & I have great patience with him if he has more tantrums & outbursts with the need to get our attention. Fill all of us with Your grace & mercy."

In Jesus Name!

Approximately 4 more weeks until Baby Sarah's arrival! :)

Summer Review

Since I'm kind of a blog slacker... I am just going to post some highlighting pics from our summer. It has been great, and we were blessed to go on vacation with my family and do some fun stuff with Will! We kicked off the summer with brother's beautiful wedding in May, followed by vacation to Hilton Head in June, did some swimming and playing at home in July, and went to the fair & zoo in August! Enjoy!

It Is Finished

I'm a little late in blogging, but I did want to recap how the New in 30 went. I did finish, and on time! Although I didn't stick to the daily plan, I read the New Testament in about 10 days instead of 30 :) Will & I also made it through his Bible, which was sweet.

It never ceases to amaze me that God makes His heart known to us. When I start a new study or reading plan, I always have the hope that God is going to reveal something BIG & NEW to me - maybe something I've missed in the past, or haven't been taught yet. However, I continually find that He continues to reveal His grace, truth, love, & mercy deeper and more intimately. I find this refreshing, yet also convicting because these things are often in conflict with my selfishness, anger, pride, you name it...

It really is all about loving God and loving others - I think about this all of the time, often in a very astonished tone. And that God gives us the power, to those who trust in Him, through His Holy Spirit to live in this truth.

God, my constant prayer is to be a lover of You and people as You have called me to be. I pray for this for Will to - that he will know and show your grace, mercy, compassion, and love to people. I pray that our family would continue to fall deeply in love with you so that we may more deeply love.

Marky Mark

Or Stevey Steve as my mom likes to say!

Kicked off Mark today! So I'm always intrigued by Jesus' interaction with demons. There's never any doubt of who's who - meaning, they always know who Jesus is and the power He has over them. There is no doubt that there is a major spiritual war going on that is "unseen." I know it and I feel it. However, I know that as being a daughter of Christ I can claim the same authority and power of this darkness and demons as Jesus was. So why don't I? Is it really easier to be selfish, and wallow in my self-pity? Is it easier to be bitter and angry and throw temper tantrums? Sometimes I think so. And they make me feel better... for a little bit.

One of the lessons that Jesus teaches over and over and over is that in the Kingdom of Heaven the first will be last and last will be first, and that we are to give and serve others. "For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many." - 10: 45 In my experiences, it has always been better, more fulfilling, and more satisfying when I'm giving myself to others vs. trying to see what I can get from others. That used to be a continual challenge to myself, and it's one I've sadly strayed from. Especially in becoming a parent, and ESPECIALLY if you are breastfeeding a child... I felt like I was giving EVERYTHING to my child, and had no claim to self. I think it's a fun adventure seeking out how to encourage people in ways that speak love to them - like baking things for my coworkers, or letting them know that I appreciate something they are doing. I'm not at complimenting others, I would say it is because of pride - fear of rejection.

Mark 8:34-35 - “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it."

Finishing Act(s)

I'm a little behind on my reading as well as my blogging, so I'm going to try to do some catch up here. I finished reading Acts - chapters 16 through the end over the weekend, and felt like I was much more engaged in reading through this book than I ever have before.

Something that struck me was Paul's composure as he appealed to several judges regarding the charges brought against him. He spoke with honor, respect, integrity, and intelligence. It gave him a great platform as he was able to testify of his conversion not only in front of these people of influence, but all who gathered to watch his trials. You can tell he was just one of those people who when he spoke, people just listened. You wonder how many conversions came from his testimonies.

"Therefore let it be known to you that this salvation of God has been sent to the Gentiles; they will listen." Acts 28:28

The Good News!

Today I read Acts 5-15, and I must confess that I was pretty tired this morning. This was day 2 of arriving at Starbucks by 6, so that I could read and hop over to work by 7, and I lost focus quite a bit.

I've really enjoyed going from Matthew into Acts. A couple of the things that caught my attention - Saul/Paul's conversion, and "the good news!" We should start with the good news because it leads right into Paul's conversion.

I just want to start by saying the phrase good news is a warm and fuzzy spot for me. When I was in grade school I went to Good News Club. Like I said before I heard this "good news" when I was very young, and I asked Jesus to come into my heart - just how my Grandma put it, who prayed with me. And can I say this is more than good news, it's GREAT news! FANTASTIC news! This is not on life-saving, but life-changing news. Read below, and get excited:

Acts 10:34-43

New International Version (NIV)

³⁴ Then Peter began to speak: “I now realize how true it is that God does not show favoritism ³⁵ but accepts from every nation the one who fears him and does what is right. ³⁶ You know the message God sent to the people of Israel, announcing the good news of peace through Jesus Christ, who is Lord of all. ³⁷ You know what has happened throughout the province of Judea, beginning in Galilee after the baptism that John preached— ³⁸ how God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Spirit and power, and how he went around doing good and healing all who were under the power of the devil, because God was with him.

³⁹ “We are witnesses of everything he did in the country of the Jews and in Jerusalem. They killed him by hanging him on a cross, ⁴⁰ but God raised him from the dead on the third day and caused him to be seen. ⁴¹ He was not seen by all the people, but by witnesses whom God had already chosen—by us who ate and drank with him after he rose from the dead. ⁴² He commanded us to preach to the people and to testify that he is the one whom God appointed as judge of the living and the dead. ⁴³ All the prophets testify about him that everyone who believes in him receives forgiveness of sins through his name.”

This good news, this transforming power that came through the resurrection of Christ is what changed Paul's life. Paul wasn't just your average Jewish Joe Schmoe hanging out at the synagogue - he was a hard core, Christian persecutor/murderer, leader of the Jews. And he was radically changed by the Holy Spirit - if you've never read Acts and about Paul's conversion, it's a must read! This man would have studied the scriptures all of his life, and known the law just as well, if not better, than everyone else but could not deny his encounter with God.

I get down sometimes, and life doesn't make sense... but I can never deny how I've encountered the living God. I've "tasted and seen" His goodness and His power, and not just in my own life, but in others lives around me as well. Praise God for His redemption of ALL people! A little gentile like myself becoming a co-heir with Christ (Romans 8:17).

I don't know if anyone reads my blog... but sweet friends, if you're not sure about this good news, or where you stand with God. Please consider it! There's nothing more intimate than a journey with your Creator!